It’s Been So Long
It’s been so long since I wrote anything. Life literally ran away from me. First I got so busy with school, sports and literally drowning in homework and then exams started. Our first ever exam in the house and it was tough. School was hard the first time around but the second time around feels even harder. Now I am the teacher, the motivator, the taxi driver, the cheer leader and constantly on my knees. (Why do kids want to grow up so fast?)
If you follow me on Instagram or Facebook you will know we have gone through a lot of major changes in less than a month so I haven’t left you, I’ve just been dealing with life.
On Friday the 14th of June at 16:30 my husband told me we were to move in two weeks. We were planning to leave but in all honesty I thought it would be a little more organised and enough time to say good bye, pack and process. There wasn’t much time for any of that.
The first week I basically sorted new schools, the old school, a new house and we had to finish exams which was super hard given the frame of mind I was in, and my daughter.
I told the kids on Monday after school, I first wanted to speak to the school before I told them. They had three days left of school and their entire world as they knew it. It was hard. As much as they were a little excited, their sadness was overwhelming. It killed me little by little. Every time they cried, I cried. What can I say? There wasn’t much to say accept cry with them and share the emotions they were going through.
I too had to say good bye to a lifetime in one place. I lived in the area since I was eight and leaving after thirty years was a lot harder than expected. It’s not the town, it’s the people. It was home. I met my husband there, we got married there, brought all four our babies home there and had many and big dreams there. It felt like someone took a scissor and cut the ribbon. Over, done, dusted.
Faith is a funny thing. It’s a lot easier said than done, but it is so important for growth. We can not grow if we don’t show God that we trust Him one hundred percent. This entire move was and still is built on trusting God, seeing where He takes us and believing in His plans for our lives.
It also makes this move a little harder because we took a step in faith without really knowing our exact next step and in a big big world that is scary. Especially with four kids and especially when you are the parent, the adult, the grownup.
I even went as far as to question God over and over just to make sure we are doing the right thing and each time He opened the doors, yet I still find myself wondering some days, and that’s why I say faith is a whole new ball game when you actually put it to practice. But I’m sure we are where we suppose to be and thankfully we are together, holding onto His promises for us as a family.
Now I am the new girl.
Everything is new. Everything is different. Again I am the adult so I have to figure it all out, be strong for the kids who miss their friends and their school so much. Don’t get me wrong, they love their new school and I am so proud of how quick they have adapted, but it doesn’t take away from what they had back home.
I miss my person, I miss seeing her at school and I miss having quick rants, laughs and cries with her, but I know this is normal. You can’t have someone in your life and a history like ours for nineteen years and not miss her.
I am not ready to stick my head out the door, at this stage I just want to be at home and find my feet. Get my balance back and literally process this massive move we made. I don’t know if I’m done crying but I know I don’t want to go back, and that must be a good enough sign after only being here two weeks.
I love the area, I like the school so far, I absolutely love our view and God has blessed me with the most beautiful sunsets and sunrises. I can see myself adapting and live a full and happy life here… eventually.
For now I am just putting one foot in front of the other, one step at a time. I know I will wake up one day and feel right at home. I am trying to focus on all the beauty around me and live with a thankful and grateful attitude whilst adapting and getting back to reality.
What Do You Think?
Have you ever moved and how did you find it? How long did it take before your new home felt like home?
The professionals says moving is one of the most traumatic or stressful life events we put ourselves through. It is ranked all the way up with divorce and death of a loved one.